and when the importance of the situation isn’t recognized, then either I am putting too much effort into it, or they’re not seeing where it can lead to. It sucks so much.
The frustration of forcing yourself to get over something and lowering your guard just to get steps to moving forward, .. being rewarded with stubborn pushback .. It just doesn’t work. I don’t know what to do and don’t know how to handle it. But the importance for me grows, and the stakes feel like they’re getting higher.
It’s not in balance, and just not worth that knot. That’s all I wanted to say. Now I can close that door and accept defeat so to speak. They win, I give up trying and the prize is never caring again.